I'm being pessimistic now , how ?

I dontknow what happen to me this few days . After hearing people

keep saying nonsensical things about you and me .

I mood became lousy , Perhaps I'm nobody to you at all .

Not even friends I guess .

I suck -'- , My life suck , My result suck . Everything suck ttm .

I feel like crying , I began to hear all those sad songs ,

I feel like jumping down and see what I meant to you .

Or am I silly as I actually waited for you so long , And who am I to you ?

I dont want any hope again , It seriously make me get more disappointment .

I'm trying to be optimistic sometimes , but I can't stop thinking about you.

This year is already 'O' level , I can't be bothered and be serious .

I keep looking back , I always think of my past . The part where I feel happy.

He actually make a decision before I do so , I didn't even said anything .

I actually hope that you would say yes .

People always ask me , What if One day , You actually asked for patch ?

What will be my reaction ? What is my reply ?

I always answered the same thing , which is "I don't think so ."

By knowing that I love you , People know that I'm lying .

Yes . To tell the truth , in fact , I'm really lying , loving you for more than a year ,

How will I say No immediately ?

I will have tears of joy if this really happen .

BUT I KNOW THIS WON'T HAPPEN . You don't love me at all .

One sided feeling only .

People think .. Think only . Or should I trust that by wishing @ 11.11 ,

wishes will come true ?

If that's so , People will be greedy okay .

In conclusion , I suck okay .

Today I've CIP . Need ask for money . To help those people who're blind .

I went to Jurong Point with Zhaoxian , but the people all no heart one ;p

No leh , actually is I never ask people for it .

Ate lunch at Mac , and go back to Woodland after that .

Thanks Jiahui alot , she helped me by asking for the money !

THANKS SO MUCH !!!!!!! :D

Shop around Causeway for a while , and go home after that .

Wont be posting for a period of time . I'm very busy for the few days.

Tmrw is the only day that I can rest .

Monday : Math drill for an hour , Dance 6 hrs .

Tuesday : Whole day @ KUKUP .

Wednesday : I got POA , EL .

Thursday : Physics , MT .

Friday : Dance for 3 hrs .

As you see , everyday I've to pass the school gate . Is this even holiday ?

Teachers still gave us so many homework , I rather have a normal school day .

Holiday is even worst okay -.-

FML .

Posting ends here , I dont want to continue already .

Goodbye .